i contemplated for a long while, if i should put this down.. seriously speaking, i am in such a huge state of confusion that i am having difficulties putting my thoughts down.. i was once so neutral bout this whole issue.. then i was pulled to one side with the majority.. yet, now that i think of it, some people's views bout this whole issue may not be entirely correct.. then again, i constantly have to remind myself that it's not the time to judge who's right and who's wrong at this point in time. everyone makes mistakes. nobody's perfect. so it's only right for us to give others a chance for repentance, cos we'll nv know when we need this chance. perhaps it's easy for me to say this, cos throughout this 2years, i was never the victim. nevertheless, i need time. just like the majority of the clique, i need time to get over this.

i admit i may have some negative remarks for a certain someone. whether or not things are gonna change, i guess i still have to accept her. we went through alot together. our similar interest that got us together..all the times we spent to put up a good performance..our laming around..i guess all these really outweigh the negative side of her handling of some things. it's mean of me to keep these remarks to myself and to tell a few others after i could no longer contain these thoughts, without the intention of correcting her for her own good. but im learning now, to help a friend and to accept people for who they are.

it's been tiring having to face all these problems these 2years. i've met with the most problematic bunch of people in my whole life. i am sorta glad school's over. i need a break. everyone else needs it too, i guess. things will never be the same again. feelings may be superficial. actions on the surface. but i just wanna remember all the fun-filled memories ive had with them. i just wanna forget the rest.